Tuesday, 29 April 2014

Frustrated At Every Turn

Today has seemed rather long, probably due to the lack of sleep last night and my shift passing by quite slowly, never a good combination.

I had a rough night, lots of tossing and turning, I'm not quite sure why, but it meant that I was shattered when I got myself to work. Work was a bit frustrating, with lots of stops and starts making the day drag slightly and it was quite late when I got my first break, so I just had something quick.

There were issues on other machines, and so I took the opportunity to ring the Dr's about my blood test results, only to be told I'd need to talk to my GP regarding the results as the receptionist wasn't sure what they meant. More waiting! Breakfast was quite late at work, 10.30, and so I had extra snackage after my overnight oats.

Suitably fuelled, the rest of the day didn't go too badly, with me emailing TOK and my machine running nicely. One more quick break...

...and it was soon 2 o'clock and time for me to escape, via the work shop to sort out some Marvel Kinder toy swaps, and then to pick up Hague from work! I finally got home close to 3pm, rather tired and very hungry, and so it was a very quick meal I threw together.

Pasta, with lots and lots of veggies, plus some cottage cheese stirred in and topped with good old Cheddar, and some fruit and yogurt for dessert. I then got down to the business of sitting and relaxing, not planning on moving a great deal. Not much later my GP rang to explain my blood test results - basically all were normal except for one, which was literally just outside the normal parameters, but it does mean that my body is working a bit harder than it should to keep my thyroid working properly, so I'll be tested again in a few months to see which way that result heads. Although it's always nice to hear that blood test results are okay, it's really frustrating to not have a clear answer to what's going on with my body - especially as an under-active thyroid would explain a lot about how I'm feeling and some of the things I suffer from, we shall see in a few months, until then, it's just a case of wait and see. Not the best news, and so after that it was back to the important task of sitting, but after giving Bayleigh a big ol' fuss and cuddle, I decided that we'd head out for a wander as the weather was briefly pleasant.

Boo's idea of a walk obviously differs from mine, as she spent most of it upside down rolling around in the freshly cut grass rather than actually walking...

...she seemed to enjoy it though, and I enjoyed stretching my legs to have a wee bit of a run with her. Once again frustration set in as for the next two days I'm working 12 hour shifts and so no chance of a run, or a ride, or seeing Hague or anything except sleeping, eating and working *sigh* Once we'd had enough fresh air and grass we headed home, and I sorted myself out a light(ish) dinner so I don't wake up hungry in the night, as I'll be heading up stupidly early this evening.

It was rather an eclectic, but tasty meal, with sausages, roasted tomatoes, cheese slices and eggs atop toast, but it worked! Dessert was yet another Marvel Kinder egg, and yet another one without the single Green Goblin toy we need to complete our collection! Gah! 

Food Diary - Green

Free Food
black forest fruits
fat free yogurt
low fat cottage cheese
Shape 0% fat yogurt
low fat Quorn sausages
cherry tomatoes

Healthy Extras
A - 40g reduced fat Cheddar
A - 3 Asda reduced fat cheese slices
B - Quaker multi-grain porridge oats
B - HiFi bar

Crispy Fries                                3½
2 slices Warburtons wholemeal   5
Kinder egg                                 5½

Total syns                                   14

No Slimming World group for me tonight either, I had actually been looking forward to going, but when I was asked to work an extra 12 hour shift on Thursday the realisation that that would mean me not really seeing a great deal of Hague until Friday changed that. It's not a habit I want to get into. I enjoy going to group, and it's not a habit I plan on breaking, although after our off plan day on Friday, I might not actually be getting on the scales for a while yet, as the freedom from them is rather liberating!

So as time is getting on now - it's 7.20 - I shall bid you all a goodnight, and warn you that it's unlikely that I'll manage to blog again until Friday. Leaving the house at 5am, and getting home at around 6.30pm doesn't leave you much time to do anything more than eat dinner, get a quick bath and head to bed. Roll on the long weekend, or as I'm working Saturday as well, it'll just be a standard two-dayer for me! A busy one at that, poor Margot is going to feel rather neglected :o(


Monday, 28 April 2014

Grabbing Life, and Racing For It

I promise, that one day soon, I won't start a blog with an apology for being hugely lazy and full of the CBA's and thus not blogging for several days. 

That day is not today.

I've not blogged in nearly a week again and I don't really have any excuse for it. Life has been meandering along as it tends to, in fact I've been off work for most of that time, so there really is no reason why I couldn't have got you updated every day with what I'd been up to! Bad Karen (again).

Wednesday was St. George's day and we were lucky enough to catch a small procession of local school children celebrating the day whilst we had our regular mooch around town.

Wednesday also involved visiting the Spice Man, a cheeky starbucks cuppa and shop wanderings with Mr HoppityLegs (aka Hague).

Thursday dawned bright and early (Boo!) as I had a Dr's appointment. I just wanted a quick check with her about my stupid body and it's recent lack of weight losing ability and it's rather hideous new habit of 3 weekly periods (sorry for the TMI). She decided a quick blood test to eliminate a thyroid problem would be a good place to start, and so it was a couple of hours later that I headed back to the surgery for said test. I really can't moan too much about the NHS in my area! So with blood safely removed it was pretty much over and done with for excitement on Thursday - except for yet another outing on Margot and rice pudding for dessert :o)

Friday was payday! My favourite day of the month, and one which we have now decided will be an off plan day. Both of us seem to be struggling with willpower at the moment and so we made the decision that once a month we'll have a nice meal out, and a few drinkies and treats in the evening. Just the one day, and then back on plan. A perk of being at target if you like. So Friday was spent eating, starting at Pizza Hut for a buffet lunch, where Hague impressed me with his ability to eat about a thousand slices of pizza, and ending in a kind of chocolate induced stupor after eating more Kinder eggs and reduced Easter eggs. We both enjoyed it though, and as promised it was back on plan for Saturday.

Saturday was another lazy-ish one, with just a hair cut planned, although I was made to go and get a helmet to wear whilst out on Margot. I'd resisted before as I thought they looked a bit gimpy, but having been informed I was far too precious to let myself get all brain squished I relented and got one. In and around that bit of excitement I enjoyed some rather yummy food. There is something to be said about having an off plan day, as I have thoroughly enjoyed my SW friendly food since! 

Sunday started sort of early, with me waking up at 8.30 and just sort of dozing until about 11 when I settled back down and we both stayed asleep until far too late, at around 1.30! Oh dear! I didn't want to waste the day though, and so after a light breakfast me and Margot headed out once more, on a bit of an explore. Alas, she chucked a bit of a dummy and slipped her chain and so I had a crash course in refitting a bike chain whilst out and about enjoying places I really should have explored before now....

Norfolk really can be beautiful, although it was a gorgeous spot, I really didn't enjoy it as much as I could have done, as Hague wasn't with me and he would have loved it so much. Next time! An early night beckoned though as the end of my week off means a 4.30am alarm on the Monday. Ick.

I was shattered when I woke up this morning. My plan of going to bed a bit later in an effort to drop off quicker failed spectacularly and so I was very tired as I headed into work, one thing that was quite a nice change was how positive I felt though. I normally hate earlies, Mondays and everything to do with them, but I felt, well, okay...quite relaxed about it all in fact. A very welcome change! I got the machine sorted and had my first snack at around 7.30.

Various things played up, but all seemed to just wash over me and I felt myself feeling quite comfortable. It made me think a bit about how far I've come as well. It wasn't that long ago that the thought of being on the filler on my own filled me with absolute panic and dread. Every part of me screamed out for something else, anything else to do so I wouldn't have to face work, the machines, the people again. Such a nice realisation that I'm definitely getting better! In fact, since calling target, I feel a lot more relaxed about most things.....strange.

Anyway, back to Norwich and my breakfast, which I was rather looking forward to, as it'd been a while.

Toasted couscous with black forest fruits, figs and yogurt, with a pear on the side. Lovely it was too :o) I wasn't overly hungry at my final break and so just had a coffee, and then the rest of the shift pretty much flew by and soon it was 2 o'clock and I was free! A quick visit to the work shop and then home, where I transformed last night's vegetable risotto into vegetable soup with the addition of a bit of stock.

Another very lovely meal, even if I do say so myself! I had pondered re-visiting Burgh Castle today with Hague and Boo, but the weather isn't too great, rather grey and depressing and so the afternoon has been spent nattering to TOK and my Mum whilst Hague catches up on 24, think the box set was a good choice for Christmas! With Hague working on his weights, I got a few sneaky Come Dine With Me's watched, mainly as the Sky+ box is down to 3% free space! This is what happens when he can't go to Barnsley for weekends! My mind then turned to dinner, and I had exactly what I'd been fancying all day long. Burger and chips.

I had the Babybels to keep me going whilst dinner cooked ;o) A couple of the Asda meat free burgers with garlic and herb chips and some roasted pepper and onions, it might be simple, but it's so very tasty. Dessert was simple, some Sharon fruit which are back in season and my Danio treat :o)

So here I am, already contemplating bed even though it's just gone 7pm. Hazards of an early shift there I'm afraid. 

Food Diary (Monday) - Green

Free Food
toasted couscous
fat free yogurt
black forest fruits
vegetable soup
Shape pineapple and coconut yogurt
sharon fruit

Healthy Extras
A - 3 Babybel Lights
A - 3 Asda lighter cheese slices
B - HiFi bar
B - 60g wholemeal bread

Cheese curls                                                               3
2 Asda meat free burgers                                            1
20g wholemeal bread                                                  2
1 tbsp each of ketchup/mustard/extra light mayo          3
Danio blueberry yogurt                                               3

Total syns                                                                   12

So a rather tired, and rather full me is about to sign off. It's strange how something as simple as calling target has eased the pressure off me in so many ways. I didn't realise the struggle with my weight was causing so much stress to me, but obviously it was.

Here's hoping the blood test gives me some news as well, although I have a nasty feeling my symptoms will be put down to good old "One Of Those Things" We shall see! Oh, and finally....as it's now less than 3 weeks away, it's probably time for a reminder about my Race for Life mission. Before I lost any weight, I completed 2 or 3 Race for Life courses, at around an hour each time. Last year, after losing 6st, I managed to walk it in just under 49 minutes.

Well, this year, after losing nigh on 11½ stone I shall be running the whole 5K course. I may not be the fastest, but I will run the whole way, something I've always wanted to achieve. I've set myself a target of £500 that I'd like to raise in sponsorship, and although I'm a fair way towards it, I'm not there yet. So if any of you have friends fighting this hideous disease, as I have, or if any of you have lost family members to it in the past, as I have, then please, please sponsor me with literally anything you can spare. Even a few pence will help, and maybe one day we really will see an end to this evil disease.

Thank you xx


Tuesday, 22 April 2014

Meandering with Margot

I had very few plans for today, I had a parcel to pick up, coffee to buy and my Slimming World group to attend, and so no alarm was set and I didn't stir until nearly midday. Lovely. 

I settled into the Girl Nest with a large coffee and started my day in a similar vein to most days, nattering to TOK whilst I pondered breakfast. In the end, I went with low effort once more.

Both my HeB's worth of the weetabix chocolate chip mini's, with a banana and pear plus a yogurt. It set me up nicely for the day, as did a rather lovely surprise in the post from my Consultant, Claire.

How lovely is that? She has been there for me every step of the way - and I know she will continue to do so. It means so very much to know you have support like that, that's for sure. With breakfast out of the way, I could venture outside, with Margot, to get the bits of shopping and my parcel. It's still so much fun! Although I was a bit worried when I had to leave her all locked up, but so far she's been safe each time, even when I left her whilst I had a search for a door stop in town, as we have living room door issues once more - a broken catch this time, so to prevent it banging all bloody day, a door stop was needed. 

Anyway, enough of the never-ending tales of the falling apart-ness of the house, and back onto food. Once I got back indoors, I was rather peckish, and so threw together a snacky kind of lunch to keep me going whilst I was at group.

Despite being at target, I'll still be attending group every week. I love going, and wouldn't miss it. I enjoy catching up with everyone, and seeing how everyone is getting on - and my issues with the scales won't stop that. Of course, I took Margot along :o) We had a bit of a mini taster too, with samples of the ChocShot, which was rather damn delicious, might have to pick some up on payday! Whilst I was at group, Hague got a bit started on dinner, so it only required minimal effort from me once I'd got back in.

Boiled potatoes with honey and mustard dressing, a delish feta and veggie omelette and some beetroot and pepper on the side, quite the summery dinner there, despite the weather not being too fabulous. At least it's stayed dry whilst I've been exploring here, there and everywhere....sort of. Once I'd eaten dinner, I decided that I needed a Danio yogurt. Alas, I had eaten the last one yesterday and when I asked TOK and Hague whether I should ride to Tesco and get one, the result was a yes, and so once more me and Margot headed out, this time with lights on for the first time, and collected some Danio's, reduced veggie soup mix and some reduced eggs. Not too shabby! 

With my legs feeling rather weary, and my tummy rather full with this delicious dessert..

...I think it's time for me and Margot to call it a night, although only I shall be having a long soak with a cuppa, she'll be resting up against the sofa instead.

Food Diary (Green)

Free Food
Activia 0% yogurt
Aldi pineapple cottage cheese
Quorn swedish meatballs
cherry tomatoes
salad potatoes

Healthy Extras
A - 350ml skimmed milk
A - 45g Feta cheese
B - (both) - 30g Weetabix chocolate mini's

tbsp ketchup                                                     1
2 tsp choco shot (at group)                                1 
2 tbsp Kraft light honey and mustard dressing     2
Danio blueberry yogurt                                      3
salted caramel HiFi bar                                     6

Total syns                                                          13

I'm feeling so much more relaxed now it's unbelievable. I'm chilled out about the food I'm eating, not stressing about portion sizes or calories, just following good old Green days and not worrying. I feel a million times better than I have in weeks and weeks. It was definitely the right decision to call target for now and as I've changed my focus to my final Body Magic award, my 95 minutes of meandering with Margot will certainly help me get there! 

Methinks I might ache tomorrow though - and I also need to get myself out for a run to ensure I don't die whilst attempting to run the full 5K of Race for Life in a few weeks....which I may have already mentioned a few times....as I'm still quite a bit away from my £500 target, and any sponsorship at all would be very, very gratefully received, and it really couldn't be easier you know - just click the sponsorship link below and follow the instructions! Easy peasy! 

Sponsorship Link

Thank you so very much xx

Adjusting My Focus

Once again, an absence from blogging, not so much due to laziness this time, more down to trying to see the bigger picture.

Way back in 2012 when I first signed up at Claire's Slimming World group, I knew my journey would be a long one. I guess I didn't anticipate just how hard it would be though, I figured my determination and sticking to the plan would be enough. My body has proved time and again that that simple equation just wouldn't be enough.

Despite the ups and downs of my journey I've stuck with it, however, the last few months have been awful. Any of you that read regularly will know the frustration and upset that the scales have been causing me. Despite following plan, the losses just haven't been coming, and the frustration and upset have just been getting worse.

I walked into the morning weigh in last week, on Wednesday. A day later than normal, and a morning rather than evening weigh in to boot, to be greeted by yet another gain. "Just" half a lb, but it put me yet again a lb heavier than I was at Christmas, and I spent the meeting in tears once more.

When I started, I wanted to get into sz14 clothes. I was unsure what weight that would be, as I'd never been there as an adult, so the figure of 12st was plucked out of the air to be my target. Later on, I decided that I wanted to be a "healthy" weight according to the much maligned BMI charts, so reset my target to 11st. My body has had other ideas, refusing to let me get below 13st 9½lbs no many what food I do or don't throw at it, so the decision has been made. I am at target. I didn't want to let Claire give me my badge and certificate as it would feel wrong. I'm not at the target I want to get to, I'm almost being forced by my body to choose this path. One thing that calling target will do is stop me panicking about the scales. After a chat with Claire, I shall be weighing just once a month or so, to ensure I'm still in target range, and apart from that I won't be getting on them. I shall take a deep breath and enjoy that original target of mine - those sz14 clothes, that have size 12 and 10 wardrobe mates now, that fit. I shall enjoy my fitness levels and my new bike, my love of running and that other target - running Race for Life. So many of the reasons I gave via this blog for losing weight have been achieved, one size tights, fitting my arse into chairs, not getting red and sweaty after walking anywhere, shopping in any shop. It's time to enjoy what I've achieved rather than stressing about what I've decided I haven't.

I shall stop stressing about numbers on a scale that never reflect my adherence to the Slimming World plan, I shall stop trying to follow this, that and every other plan and stick with my favourite Green days and once a month, I shall see what's happening. I shall relax and enjoy my life, my food and the person I now am. One thing I won't be doing is straying off plan, as myself and Hague have been doing that this weekend. Indulging ourselves in all sorts of things, Easter eggs, hot cross buns, pizza, and general food of much beige-ness and crap. Whilst we started off enjoying it, we ended up feeling sick and stuffed and both of us craving good, wholesome, healthy Slimming World food once more, today it has been a relief to return to plan, so here we are, back again on familiar territory.....with a rather big catch up and then getting a good SW food diary :o)

The weekend was a whirlwind really, with lots of bad food....

I didn't eat the enormous hot cross bun though, that was a present for The Parentals...I did counteract some of the over-eating when I picked up my new favourite thing ever...

Yes, I finally have my bike, which is beautiful and amazing and such fun to ride, and has been christened Margot. I also picked up some essentials for my MayCation with TOK...

...and had some rather lovely family time, involving many selfies...

Add in the fabulous drunken, chattery, film night with my BBFF (Boy Best Friend Forever lol) and it's been rather a spiffing weekend indeed, but with all the eating, drinking and being merry over with for now, it's time to get back on the wagon and get you all up to date once more.

Monday, and a day when I woke up after a huge old sleep, no alarm, nothing to get up for, and so Hague left me in bed, I finally stirred at 2pm, feeling rather peckish and so headed downstairs. All the remaining crap had been lovingly fed into our cute little hairy dustbin and so I made myself a small, simple breakfast, all deliciously on plan.

Muesli, fruit and yogurt, with a green tea - simple but tasty. I then got settled into my girl nest whilst Hague watched a few films and I caught up with Masterchef and The Great British Menu, and soon he fancied something to eat, me, being a very lovely girlfriend had insisted he let me run around after him today to properly rest up and so I rustled him up some baked potatoes and salad whilst I had some veggie soup I'd found in the fridge.

I then got myself out to have another lovely bike ride, such a fabulous feeling to just be zooming along under your own steam. I totally love it! We still haven't really found a home for Margot though, so she's currently in the lounge - which I rather like as I can look at her all the time and it adds a certain kookery to the house! Unsurprisingly, after a few days where we've been eating and eating and eating, it wasn't too long before I was hungry again and so got to work on dinner, with me and Hague sort of having the same this time, the only difference was I had Quorn chunk and he had turkey. The rest of the pasta, vegetable and cheese mix was the same, a rarity!

It did use up the last of my squiggly octopus spaghetti though :o( After dinner, I decided I needed a bath as I was feeling a bit achey after my hour of riding and so got myself chilled out with some more catch up telly and a coffee, whilst chatting away to all and sundry! After the bath, I was peckish once more and so did myself a quick snacky type meal to tide me over.

Just some of the syn free Quorn sausages in wholemeal baps accompanied by some carrots and a Danio, plus yet more tea with my HeA of milk that's been keeping me going all day :o)

So here I am, all content after a lovely day on plan, settled in my girl nest with a JadeyPuss nestled in next to me and Dead Snow on the tellybox, a rather nice end to a fabulous weekend and a good note to start my week off with. 

Food Diary (Green)

Free Food
Activia 0% yogurt
homemade veggie soup 
cherry tomatoes
Quorn chunks
low fat Quorn sausages

Healthy Extras
A - 350 skimmed milk
A - 75g soft cheese
B - 40g Dorset Cereals simply fruity muesli
B - 60g wholemeal bread

Jacob's cheese baked oddities                5½
25g soft cheese                                       2
20g wholemeal bread                              2
tbsp ketchup                                           1
Danio blueberry yogurt                            3

Total syns                                               13½

It's good to be back, and hopefully calling target will chill me out nicely, and allow my body to get used to where it is so I can be in the right frame of mind to push onwards to 11 stone when the time is right! 

Oh.....and feel free to sponsor me in my efforts to run Race for Life! The sponsorship page is right HERE I hope you've all had a fabulous Easter, and are finding it easy getting yourselves back on track! 


Wednesday, 16 April 2014

Five In A Flash!

It's been a very odd few days, very much out of the normal routine and as such, blogging has fallen by the wayside a tad, I do apologise!

I shall whizz through as best as I can, hopefully keeping to that fine line between getting you up to date and not boring you to death with the in's and out's of what's been happening in the Mitchy Hague household. Firstly, not long after I last put fingers to keyboard, I was shouted awake by Hague, whose calf muscle, which had been playing him up for a while, had finally given out on him, so I had to get him safely to bed before getting back to sleep before my early alarm. So Friday turned out to be BUSY....once work was done..(fuelled by food looking rather like this...)

..I got myself home and changed in time to get his Hague-ness to the doctor to see what he'd done. The verdict was a nasty tear in one of his lower leg muscles and at least 6 weeks without Muay Thai (kickboxing) until it was mended. It also meant he couldn't make the journey to see his boys at the weekend either. So it wasn't a very happy Hague that I left on the sofa whilst I got on with the rest of my rushing around...First, to Gorleston, to pick up my new t-shirt..

..and also to head to FarmFoods to stock up on frozen fruit, then it was to Tesco, Aldi and Asda to get the main bulk of the week's shopping. I then headed out to pick up some crutches so at least my poor invalid could get himself around! By the time I got myself sat down it was gone 7, I was starving, and so dinner was very quick!

Late night snackage was also munched before we headed up to bed.

As I'd had two weeks of early starts, I shouldn't have been surprised when I woke up quite bright and early. I got myself up, breakfasted - 

and then got myself nice and cosy in my Girl Nest. I really have made myself at home on the new reclining armchair!

Once Hague was up we headed into town for a general mooch, mainly as we just wanted to get ourselves out. Back home, I ate things that looked like this...

...whilst rocking yet another new t-shirt that looked quite a lot like this...

Although we then had a disaster when Hague discovered that his new game was unplayable as the wibbly bit of his PS3 remote was broken. This is apparently quite essential to game playing, and so we had a late night foraging mission to Asda and Tesco to try and find one. With no luck :o( So I had something else to do on Sunday, after work, yes, I did me some money-grabbing, but first, Saturday night, which shaped up like this...

I *may* have picked up more Kinder eggs whilst shopping....and we now have 7 super hero's and only one duplicate, not too shabby! 

Anyway, for some reason, when I was offered Sunday overtime, I said yes. My pending speeding fine might have had something to do with it, and so it was once again that I dragged myself out of bed at stupid o'clock and headed into work. It wasn't the hardest day's work I'd ever done that's for sure, as mostly we cleaned a bit, then drank coffee, then did a bit more cleaning, interspersed with much chatting as it was in my old department, with my old team, and so I did a lot of rather lovely catching up as well. Obviously, with lots of breaks, that meant quite a lot of food too.

Once home,  it was a quick lunch before heading into town on the PS3 controller mission.

Argos yielded the much needed controller, and with a quick visit to a few other shops, we headed home and got started on dinner.

Roast dinner, followed by rice pudding. Lush. Onto Monday then, and back to work once more, at least this week it's a later shift, 2-10, which means time for a cooked breakfast!

Then it was work, where I was back to normality (very almost) as I'm back on my usual machine, on my usual hours - just with someone else to help out should my brain melt. I didn't feel anxious or anything either. Progress indeed :o) I even had something a bit different for lunch at work, Quorn meatballs with gnocchi.

In my continuing efforts to get the weight moving again I have been paying special attention to whether I am hungry or not before I eat, hence not having too much to eat at work. When I got home, I thought I'd be starving, but barely managed more than a few mouthfuls of soup.

I did manage to eat the Ryvita mini's though, and then rice pudding for dessert ;o)

Then, rather than blogging, I snuggled up in my Girl Nest and watched a few episodes of the Great British Menu before being sent to bed for falling asleep! Oops!

Here we are then, today, Tuesday! Despite not having the biggest dinner, I didn't wake up feeling massively hungry and so went with something rather light for breakfast.

Weetabix chocolate crispy mini's with a couple of plums and a banana with 200ml of the unsweetened Alpro almond milk, which made a nice change and tasted rather nice. Then it was time to get ready for work, a bit earlier than normal, as I was on a Hague requested, Easter based mission to pick up yet more Marvel Kinder eggs.

Mission accomplished :o)

Then it was time for work, which went reasonably quickly, with once again no anxiety to speak off, although I was rather narked by the fact that my sponsor form has gone missing - so had to find more online. Goodness only knows why someone decided to remove it :o( Anyway, a reasonable shift, with this lot of food - 

Quite a lot of food today, but I was definitely peckish! Didn't stop me putting dinner away almost as soon as I got home though!

I even have plenty of risotto left for lunch tomorrow, not too shabby at all. 

Food Diary - (Tuesday) - Extra Easy

Free Food
vegetable soup
Shape pineapple and coconut 0% yogurt
Quorn chicken style fillets
risotto rice
pearl barley
summer fruits

Healthy Extras
A - 75g soft cheese
B - 30g Weetabix crispy mini's (chocolate)

200ml Alpro unsweetened almond milk           1
Fish n Chips                                                   6
Liberte honey yogurt                                      1½

Total syns                                                      8½             

So that's the basics of the last five days covered. As you can (probably) see, I've stuck with Extra Easy for yet another week. In an effort to ensure that I'm not wildly over or under eating, I'm also tracking my food on My Fitness Pal to see what sort of calorie levels I'm at, and nothing is sticking out as yet. We shall see. I've not weighed in today, mainly as I was at work, so I'll be weighing in tomorrow. I have lost for the last 2 weeks, but not a real loss, as it's taken me those two weeks of losses to get rid of the 3lb gain from 3 weeks ago. It's been a long hard slog, mainly mentally and I'm struggling not to let the whole issue of losing weight take over my life at the moment - I'm questioning everything I eat, everything I do wondering what it is that's causing such an issue right now.    

After weigh in tomorrow morning, I'll decide how to move forward next week. I'm still not enjoying EE as much as the other plans, so will more than likely have a week of Success Express with a few Green days to change things up. Who knows, perhaps I'll have a huge loss and I'll be all happy and smiley when I get off those scales....


...I do hope so, as I am currently fighting a craving, a huge craving, to treat myself to a large, luxury, naughty, extravagant Easter egg. Staying strong will be much, much easier if I'm finally working towards a new award again! I do want to say a huge, huge thank you to everyone who has messaged me with advice to help me get through this sticky patch. I apologise if I haven't responded, but I have read them all, and appreciate every bit of help you've sent my way. Thank you x

Oh, and finally (at long chuffing last I hear you all sigh), there is still time to sponsor me to run Race for Life!