Wednesday, 31 July 2013

Fitness Bugs and Face Masks

I don't know where to start with today really. It seems like it's been a hugely lazy day, but when I think about what I've done it really hasn't been. I didn't even stay in bed all morning! I woke up when Hague's alarm went off, nodded off again whilst he was getting ready but then once he left I got up, well, I stayed awake, but then the postman knocked, bringing a HUGE box of Warburtons goodies for me to try and so I decided to stay up, even though it was only 9.30!

I rummaged through my Warburtons box and got all the bits and bobs in the freezer. I'd been sent wraps, thins, crumpets and pittas so I'll be having a good play with that little lot I'm sure! Coffee was required by now though, and so I plonked down in front of the telly with a huge cup whilst the giant cous cous soaked for breakfast.


A veritable rhubarb extravaganza today! With cooked rhubarb and a Shape rhubarb crumble yogurt! Very yummy. Once breakfast (and another coffee) had gone down I decided to have a look at the activities my WiiFit had to offer and ended up doing 25 minutes of various exercises, hula hooping, step classes and jogging.....which I really enjoyed....so now I'm pondering whether I'd be able to complete the Couch to 5K programme. Definitely something to thing about. I did my little core routine too on my exercise ball. That consists of ab curls, sit ups, sort of push ups and some tricep extensions, and I can really feel my muscles once I've done it, so hopefully it does some good! After that I was rather hot and sweaty and so headed up for a soak.

Where I had a nice relaxing Lush face mask. Which made me look like an Alien :)


The picture made me laugh anyway :)

Suitably refreshed I then headed out to meet Hague when he finished work - grabbing that Body Magic baton again and having a very brisk walk to get the old heart pumping. So 40 minutes done today towards my Silver. I'm quite impressed with myself!

I spent an interesting hour at the museum whilst Hague finished up with my new friend Matthew, a son of one of the museum workers. He showed me his hissing cockroaches, his Hawk Moth caterpillars and we discussed the merits of being in Slytherin :) I also got a tad hungry and so nicked the grapes Hague had taken into work.


Due to Hague being a very busy boy we didn't get home until nearly 5.30 and by then I was starving so wanted some thing really quick. I thought I'd give some of my Warburtons goodies a try and so had one of the sandwich pittas stuffed with tomatoey meatballs, sort of a meatball sub type thing.


Topped with cheese of course ;) I thought the pitta was pretty good value syn wise as it was 8½, and it was huge, similar to two normal pittas. Hague had the same for dinner and rather enjoyed it too! The evening then followed a rather sedate pattern of nothingness which was just what I needed. Plus of course the usual distractions in the shape of nattering away to TOK! Hague got his UFC trainer out, which always makes me feel peckish for some reason, and so while he worked on his fitness, I sat on the sofa eating chocolate :)


Once he'd done with his routine I asked if I could set up a profile on it, as although it looks hard work, it also looks quite fun. it asks you to do a fitness test, involving sit ups, push ups and jumping jacks and to test your heart rate afterwards. Somehow, despite me not managing a proper push up, it has decided I am at an intermediate level of fitness. I feel the game is misguided somewhat, and may prove that to it tomorrow! I'd done enough for one day though, and those 3 minutes of mayhem were enough for me and even pushed me to thinking about dinner :)


Cheesey stuffed peppers with egg and chips, eclectic perhaps but it filled a hole! Well, not for too long as after a while I was scavenging for more noms and ended up with a yogurt and the rest of the grapes from this afternoon.


Food Diary

Free Food
toasted cous cous
grapes
chopped tomatoes
red onion 
garlic
sweet peppers
Quorn meatballs
eggs
potatoes (purple and normal)
more sweet peppers ;)
more grapes ;)
Activia 0% lemon and lime yogurt

Healthy Extras
A - 40g reduced fat cheddar
A - 6 laughing cow extra light triangles
B - 2 Alpen Light bars

Syns
300g of cooked rhubarb (450g is a HeB, but I didn't have enough so synned it)           1½
Shape rhubarb crumble yogurt                                                                                    ½
Warburtons sandwich pitta                                                                                         8½

Total syns                                                                                                                  10½

And so another day of my week off draws to a close, and despite me feeling like I have done pretty much nothing all day, the exercise and the genuine feeling of satisfied tiredness I'm feeling would suggest otherwise. I've had lots and lots of lovely comments from people all over Facebook as well regarding my loss which has been SO nice. It's genuinely such a boost when people take the time to do that, plus my blog has already had way over 2,000 views already today, which is more than ever before! I'd better try and do something interesting hadn't I?

Oh and a HUGE squish of congratulations to the ever wonderful TOK who got offered a permanent job today. I'm so happy for her :) AND she lost 3½lbs. The Purple SW Bus is working it's magic this week that's for sure!


A Wee Bit Shocked

I felt much better when I woke up this morning, a decent sleep is always pretty helpful when you want to feel better, and when Hague deserted me for work, I did my best to get a few more hours in. I didn't sleep much, but played on the iPad and drifted in and out and was still in bed when Hague popped home for lunch. Sometimes being lazy is the fastest route to happiness for this lazy girl!

I did actually get myself out of bed when Hague went back to work and busied myself feeding the animals and sitting whilst drinking coffee, and then getting myself up and ready to go and meet Hague at work. He was finishing at 4.30, but we had a few bits to do before heading to group and so didn't bother coming home, we went and got a table from Argos, as he's been using a rather precarious creation to put his laptop on, and the we were going to pick up some more Danio's from Tesco but I'd forgotten my vouchers! So even with a quick visit to Aldi for the SotW goodies we were half an hour early for weigh in! It was quite nice to catch up with people though, and so it wasn't a chore to sit around and natter whilst we waited for 5.30.

I was first on the scales, and as has been normal over the last few weeks I didn't know what to expect and so was rather nervous when I got on them. The display had been accidentally placed where it couldn't be seen and so I got on, quite happy I couldn't see and just waited....I asked Hague what they said and when he uttered the number "15" I had to look down....I was 15st 13½lbs! I was in the next stone bracket! And for those of you paying attention, I'd lost 9 bloody lbs! I was genuinely shell-shocked, the only time I've lost more than that in a week was my first week! So, the roller coaster ride continues, strangely, these down ones are easier to bear though ;) It was the vote for Woman of the Year in group tonight as well, and I'll be honest, it was a bit of a struggle to choose - we genuinely have so many inspirational ladies in our group, some with big losses, some with willpower to die for, some that are always there for others, and some that always go the extra mile to make you smile. So, so hard, I'm looking forward to see who gets it that's for sure.

So I came home from group with these...



I really hadn't expected my 9st award today, and most definitely didn't expect to lose so much. My total loss is now 9st 3lbs, but to be honest, it's the dropping into the 15st bracket that has really got to me this evening. I got home and it sunk in that I am now less than 4 stone from target. Now, I appreciate that 4 stone is still a  lot of weight, and to many of you that's the total you want to lose, but as I started with over 13st to lose I got a wee bit emotional to think that there is just 3st 13½ lbs between me and 12 stone. It felt good to finally get my Bronze Body Magic award too, it's a huge thing for me to actually be enjoying exercise and making it part of my life.

After weigh in, it was most definitely dinner time, and risotto was my meal of choice.


Baked vegetable risotto with blue cheese on top of half a butternut squash. As always, easy peasy and minimal effort :)

I chopped up all the veg (courgette, onion, peppers and asparagus) and put them in an oven proof dish with a Knorr stock pot, risotto rice and water then put it all in the oven, I roasted the BNS at the same time. After 25 minutes I checked it and the rice needed a wee bit more, so I put some more water in and left it in for another 10 minutes, and after that it was perfect. I stirred through some fresh spinach and 4 Laughing Cow blue cheese triangles and it was done. I dolloped it onto my BNS and topped with Stilton. Once again, I surprised myself with how nice it tasted, and seriously.....diet food? Got to love it!

After posting the picture of my certificate on the SW FB pages, I then spent ages replying to all the lovely comments and chatting away to TOK and two of the lovely ladies from my group - Sam and Sacha - and before I knew it, I was feeling peckish once more, and today, the lure of those Healthy Extras was too great and I succumbed to a delicious cheese toastie.



As you can see, the accompaniment to my toastie was a rather impressive gherkin.......and I'm hoping that it might make at least one person smile this evening :) My last Danio was also nommed up as dessert.

Unfortunately the closest I've got to Body Magic tonight is watching Hague do both his UFC Trainer and his Insanity routine. I was knackered just watching him, but will crack out the Zumba tomorrow - I don't want to get complacent with exercise just because I've got my sticker, although I have spent the evening perusing beautiful bikes. I need one in my life, and I think I would look jolly marvellous riding around Great Yarmouth on this beauty :)


A girl can dream :) My friend Shane was also rather disgusted that I was contemplating a bike with only one gear, but I'm planning just to ride around town, so figured that flatness really only needs one speed. And it's pretty, and that's far more important :)

Anyway, dreams of bikes are futile at the moment and so I shall continue to share my evening with you....with sweaty Hague bounding about and me yabbiting to people on Facebook :) Obviously hungry work as I decided tea and chocolate biccies would be the perfect end to my day.


Food Diary

Free Food
risotto rice
Butternut squash
onion
stock pot
courgette
peppers
spinach
coleslaw mix
gherkin

Healthy Extras
A - 30g Cheddar
A - 4 Laughing Cow blue cheese light triangles
B - 30g Stilton
B - 2 slices wholemeal bread (400g loaf)

Syns
4 tbsp Hellmann's extra light mayo                 2
Danio strawberry yogurt                                1
14 Mikado                                                   7
Milk in tea (1)                                              ½

Total syns                                                    10½

Obviously a better day today, and one day I shall learn to hit a happy medium with this little roller coaster ride. Claire suggested a week of Extra Easy on the weeks that I seem to be gaining, to see if the cutting back of the Healthy Extras help. We shall see, as I've tried that before. Something is definitely askew though, as as much as I loved losing 9lbs, it's not quite right is it? I think I shall get back on my happy pills, and see where I am in a month's time. Perhaps the cycle will be broken anyway as I can't make it to group next week due to a 12 hour shift on earlies :( 

What a journey eh? 


Monday, 29 July 2013

In Which I Have a Shitty Day And Moan About It A Lot (Again)

Once again, today has been shite. I'm getting rather sick and tired of having day after day of crappiness and annoyances, and I'm sure you're all sick and tired of me blogging about them as well!

I had the worst awakening this morning. A crash from downstairs woke me up, never a good sign, and this usually means that Flumpy has knocked something flying whilst she wanders around the house with utter disregard for everything in her way. This morning though it was the gerbil cage that had got in her way :( I came downstairs to a cage in pieces, Flash lying dead in the carnage and two missing gerbils AWOL somewhere in the living room with two cats.

I've had better mornings. 

I managed to find, and eventually catch Minky and Al and got the poor, terrified little things back in their cage and got Flash safely snuggled up in a box. At least the cats hadn't got to him and he was in one piece. A horrible, hideous way to start my day - and I think it's obvious why my mood has stayed low.

As today involved much car related activity, I stayed up, fortified by coffee. It wasn't long before I got a phone call saying the new car would be delivered just after 10. Fantastic, the Fiat 500 I'd be waiting for for years would soon be mine. I was so excited!


Isn't she pretty? Unfortunately, my good mood evaporated rather quickly after a search of the car heralded no auxillary socket, or any other means of connecting my phone to the stereo so I can listen to music. This isn't the entry level model, and the technical specs stated that it was "MP3 compatible" Apparently this means the stereo will play CD's with MP3's on them. Seriously? In 2013? Who still does that when the world and his wife has a smartphone with their entire music library on them? To many people this might be such a small thing as to be insignificant, but I LOVE my music, and listening to my tunes whilst driving is a sure fire way to cheer me up and to find that a brand new car has absolutely no way to do that really did piss me right off. As Hague's train was running late I did get an early chance to drive her anyway as I went and got him from the station so he could make it to work in time. The observant of those amongst you will realise that at this point I still haven't eaten....I had started breakfast, but then had to leave it to get Hague, and started it up again when we got back, only to sit down to eat it as the British Gas man arrived.

At least my boiler service finally got carried out.

Breakfast was cold.


An omelette, stuffed with an entire courgette and some peppers, topped with 3 LowLow cheese slices and some baked beans. I've been flicking through my book looking for SS foods, and apparently beans qualify. At this point, I'm trying everything to lose weight!

Dotty was then picked up, with the sun unhelpfully shining away and highlighting every teeny little mark, scratch and ding on her. So that was nice. As my mood was descending further and further, I decided to head out and see Hague at The Tolhouse, where he was working today. As we chatted, my hideous moods were obviously discussed and Hague suggested that maybe I need to go back onto my happy pills for a little bit longer (I've been weaning myself off) to help me cope, as I'm struggling at the moment. it makes me sad to ponder that though - have all the good feelings I've been having in the last few months just been smoke and mirrors? *sigh* I guess mental health recovery is always fragile, and it's best to act now rather than later, when things could have got a whole lot worse.

After Hague was all finished we had to head out shopping. Yep, it really has been that good a day. Aldi was hell, and Asda was worse. I shall concede one good point. 5 Hovis 400g wholemeal loaves reduced to 36p, which we nabbed. My plans for burgers for dinner were thwarted by Asda having no wholemeal rolls at all, and there were no lemon Alpen lights or SmartPrice beetroot. By the time we got to the beer aisle both of us were at breaking point and so in a happy compromise we picked up a 4 pack of Carling Zest. 5 syns per bottle, 2 bottles each, beer, and within our syns. Thank f*ck for the little things!

After such fun, we were both starving and so Hague set to making a feast to end all feasts. I actually lost track of all the things he was planning to have on his plate, I still had my burgers, but improvised a roll with an Aldi sub instead.



There would actually have been room on the plate for the chips, but the oven was joining in the spirit of the day and was on a go slow! Eurgh, what an annoying day. I went to get a beer then, which wasn't cold :( So that got lobbed into the freezer as an emergency measure! 

I then mired myself in Facebook for a while, before getting myself a rather large dessert.


I finally realised what the double chocolate Alpen Lights remind me of as well, rice crispie cakes....another shimmering high point in my day :) Beer was now finally cold and so I gratefully indulged. I had planned to have two, but think I'll leave it at one, that'll do for me today!

Food Diary

Free Food
eggs
baked beans
courgette
sweet peppers
spring onion
Quorn sweet red onion burger
sweetcorn
coleslaw mix
Asda beetroot salad
potato
strawberries
Activia 0% lemon and lime yogurt

Healthy Extras
A - (x2) 3 LowLow burger slices
B - 60g wholemeal bread
B - (split) 30g wholemeal bread / Alpen Light

Syns
10g wholemeal bread                           1
2 tbsp Hellmanns extra light mayo         1
tbsp ketchup                                        1
Carling Zest                                         5

Total syns                                            8

I think Hague (and TOK) have spoken sense today. Whilst my days have been a bit crappy recently, I'm not coping with them too well. There's no shame in taking anti-depressants, and obviously it's still a bit early for me to come off them completely, the last few weeks have highlighted that. Why make things harder for myself eh? So I shall be getting back on them, and hopefully my moods will stop mirroring the wild up and downs of my weight! Who knows, as TOK pointed out, perhaps there is the missing link I've been searching for? The happy pills?

We shall see......here's to (hopefully) a much happier me in the coming weeks! I'm sure you're all rather relieved to hear that!

Silly Girl and Self Praise

Oh dear. Today has not been my most impressive achievement.

I do worry about myself sometimes....but I shall get to my blonde moment shortly, firstly I shall bring you back to me dragging myself out of bed and conjuring up a huge coffee whilst I sorted out my breakfast, which fitted today's criteria of quick and filling as I'd signed up for a bit of money-grabbing overtime today.



Fried eggs with sweet potato wedges, Linda McCartney sausages and mushrooms. After I ate it I looked at the clock and thought to myself how little time I had left until I had to get ready for work. A few rounds of Candy Crush and I headed up to get myself sorted to work as the time was edging closer to "The Hour"....All ready, I headed out and got to work in pretty good time, mainly as it was Sunday. I walked in, and it was really quiet....It was 20 to, and I start at quarter to, so I was slightly unnerved by the lack of people. Regardless I plonked myself down and carried on the conversation that is ever ongoing between myself and TOK, her first response was to say how early I was at work.....which prompted me to actually, properly look at the hour hand rather than the minute hand....Doh. I was a bloody HOUR early! I had managed to get myself so bloody focused on the minutes, that the hour passed me by completely. What an absolute wally. Still, my earliness and indecision meant that I racked up 18 flights of stairs in 10 minutes. Body Magic complete!!

So I popped out to get Boo's food that I figured I hadn't had time to get before work, and then wasted quite a while enjoying the sunshine before heading back in to actually start work at 2! The lines had finished late yesterday and so we had to finish up the clean, not my favourite activity, especially when it's still so hot! Breaks came around soon enough though :)



I was pretty hungry already by first break and so added in some crisps to my usual snacks, I blame all the cleaning!



My lunch was yesterday's leftovers, plus yet another Danio yogurt. This one is definitely my favourite despite being 3 syns, as it tasted just like blueberry cheesecake to me! I know where my last two vouchers will be going! My final break was rather fruity...please excuse the nibble out of the peach. We've had them a while and so I figured I'd try it to make sure it was edible before I included it in my picture :) The shift did drag quite a lot, cleaning first followed by annoying machines just seemed to make the shift last forever and I was clock watching to a terrible degree from about 7pm. Finally the clock ticked round to 9.45pm and I was free, and my week off had officially arrived :)

I got home to grumpy animals, all wanted food or fusses or a wee, and dealt with those, got myself changed, got the water on ready for a bath and then set to my dinner. Which I'd been pondering at work. I knew I had 3 healthy extras left, and also knew I didn't want anything too time consuming or too heavy when I got in and this is what I came up with...


Now, I did ask Hague if it was odd to think your own cooking is fabulous, and he said it wasn't, so I shall let you all know that this did in fact taste fabulous!! It was done in less than 15 minutes as well :) I put 2 flat mushrooms and some of my diddy little peppers in the oven and then put some gnocchi on to cook, when that was done (in 3 minutes) I put it into a hot pan with a chopped spring onion, cherry tomatoes and a bit of garlic. I then added in the peppers, some spinach and a tub of LowLow and put the lot on top of the mushrooms and sprinkled my HeB of Stilton over the top....Oh it was good, so good! It may have been heavy on Healthy Extras, but I think I'll be having it again, especially as it was jam packed with superfree too :)

With a chat with Hague being cut short due to his early start, I am now watching some Come Dine With Me whilst I share my day with you all and ponder whether to splash out some more syns on my last Danio yogurt....

Food Diary

Free Food
eggs
LM rosemary and red onion sausages
sweet potato
mushrooms
banana
cous cous
spinach
onion
courgette
strawberries 
peach
sweet peppers
cherry tomatoes
spring onion

Healthy Extras
A - 60g LowLow cheese spread (x2)
B - 2 Alpen Lights
B - 30g Stilton

Syns
Danio blueberry yogurt                     3
Crispy Fries                                     3½
Quorn roast style fillet slices             ½ (the whole packet is ½ so I took all the syns today)
200g gnocchi                                   4
Danio cherry yogurt                         1½

Total syns                                        12½

I have decided that the yogurt will be a good idea, and I shall curl up on the sofa and enjoy every mouthful of it before heading for a quick bath and bed, as tomorrow holds an early start and much waiting as Dotty is getting picked up, my new car is getting dropped off, and apparently, between 12-2pm my boiler will finally be getting serviced......we shall see eh? So no overly busy, but I'll need to be up at 9 :( 

Sunday, 28 July 2013

Fighting Back and Food in Bowls

I woke up on Friday determined not to let myself wallow anymore. I made the decision to focus on Good Things only, and not let things get to me. I didn't have a great night's sleep again, but got up (just) in time to sort myself some breakfast. My appetite really hasn't come back too much and so I didn't go too mad.


In the name of mixing things up, I used a HeB of olive oil on the mushrooms, as well as some mixed herbs to make a bit of a change. Very nice :) With that eaten I headed to work, and rather than listen to the radio, I put on my favourite music really loud and sang all the way in. That was pretty much the highlight of the next few hours though as the first two hours of work I was left pretty much on my own, on a two man job, with the machines playing up constantly in 36 degree heat......that isn't on the list of Good Things for the day! I was utterly frazzled by the end of that, really, seriously frazzled, almost to the point of tears frazzled! At my first break I only had a quick drink and even on the next one I only managed this...


I did have another Good Thing happen during my break though, I had received an email from Warburtons about my pizza, and offering me some more bits and bobs to try :) Quite looking forward to getting inventive with their goodies, here's hoping they're reasonably low syn!

Up until lunch at work (6pm) work was still hard going - alarms going off constantly, and it was a relief to get up in the tea room for a rest at lunch time, I say rest as I brought this with me for lunch:


And took this much home:


I'd heated it up, so couldn't really save it for another day, so a very happy BooDog had a very pasta-ey dinner. The machines finally settled down after that thank goodness, and so the rest of the shift wasn't quite as horrific. I still packed in over 8 miles of walking though - and the coolest it got was 32 degrees, so maybe people's comments about the heat affecting my loss are right, as we're not talking normal temperatures that I'm doing that much activity in!

It was wonderful to come home to Hague, and instantly my mood lifted again. Although not my appetite, and this was dinner.


One of the Danio super thick yogurts that I had the good fortune to have a voucher for from BzzAgent, in fact two vouchers, both for 50p....and when the yogurts cost 85p, and are on a bogof, that means Tesco paid me for the privilege of buying them. Now that's a Good Thing hehe. It wasn't long at all before hot, sweaty mingy me wanted a bath and so in the name of getting my healthy extras down me I took up some supplies.


Suitably healthy extra-d and de-scrudded it was time to settle down to sleep as we had a zillion jobs to do on Saturday morning.

Food Diary (Friday)

Free Food
mushrooms
eggs
strawberries
pasta
spag bol sauce

Healthy Extras
A - 40g reduced fat Cheddar
A - 250 ml semi-skimmed milk
B - 1 tbsp extra virgin olive oil
B - 2 Alpen Lights

Syns
2 Quorn sausages                   2
Danio strawberry yogurt         1
Aldi light hot chocolate           2

Total syns                              5

Now, as I mentioned up there *points* we had a zillion jobs to do, including clearing out Dotty ready for her to be picked up on Monday, getting the weekly shop, calling my Nan, getting some Body Magic in, getting Dotty valeted and dropping Hague at the station by 2pm. Phew. I'm tired just typing it all out. So I was up nice and early right?

What do you think???

It was 12.15 when I woke up, bleary eyed after another hideous nights. Panic immediately set in as no way could I fit in those jobs, plus some kind of cleansing before 2! Eek! However, once again, as he so often does, Super Hague had swooped to the rescue, sorted the animals out and cleared out Dotty as he'd been awake for ages already. Seriously, he's a bloody gem that man! So when I got myself sorted, the only thing I really had to do was get dressed, squee a bit at the arrival of the Breaking Bad t-shirts and drink some coffee before I took Hague to the station. Dressed in another of my new Threadless t-shirts.


I wasn't allowed to wear the Qwertee Breaking Bad one as Hague was wearing his :)

I'd decided just to grab a couple of bits for me, rather than the whole amount of shopping and so once Hague was safely deposited I went to Tesco, to get some more bargain-a-liscious yogurts and some eggs. I ended up spending £16! They had Muller desserts, reduced spinach and baby peppers, and I decided to pick up some halloumi and Quorn strips too, for which I shall place the blame in TOK's lap as she has been indulging in both this week :)

I dropped that lot off and had planned on getting Dotty sorted, but figured that 3pm was already pretty late and that breakfast should probably be had! My appetite has returned today thank goodness, and so I went for a salady brunch type thing.


I just roasted off some peppers and asparagus, then mixed it all with salady stuff (spinach, beetroot, cucumber and tomatoes) and topped it with eggs, that should have been soft boiled, but I managed to bugger that one up! Still good though, especially when washed down with two large mugs of black coffee. Yum.

It was then time for Dotty to get all spruced up, and so I had a rather indulgent 45 minutes out of the house, which I spent yapping to TOK and Hague and catching up with my much neglected Kindle before heading home. For some reason, my mood then crashed....proper down mood. No idea why, but rather than sit on the sofa and mope I took the decision to do some exercise as I know that does actually cheer me up. I know. That sentence scares me slightly too...

So I prepped up some lunch (putting some courgettes and onion into roast and soaking some cous cous) and then set to the Body Magic, doing 3 minutes of skipping and 12 of my Dance on Broadway game, working up a nice sweat and appetite and getting another 15 minutes of Body Magic under my belt....that Bronze Body Magic award is now just 20 minutes away! 


Lunch was yet another bowl of food. This time cous cous, soaked in boiling water and a Knorr herb pot, mixed with the onion and courgette, some more spinach, the quorn roast style strips, 2 tbsp of extra light mayo, lemon juice and my HeB of Stilton. Rather different and rather tasty too, plus, of course, I made tons so that's work lunch sorted for tomorrow (yes tomorrow, money grabbing once more). I then had a lovely chat with my Nan, catching up with her and apologising for not sending her a birthday card, it was nice to chat to her, hear how she's settling back in at home (she's been staying with my Mum for 6 weeks as she's broken her pelvis). I then got massively distracted by a repeat of The Olympics opening ceremony, and spent a good hour getting swept up in a rather lovely patriotic mood. As the appetite has seemingly returned I then started to think about dinner, and as I'd also grabbed the makings of the infamous Big Mac in a Bowl at Tesco, that's what I did :)


So...Big Mac in a Bowl, a recipe that seems to have been doing the rounds for an age on the SW FB pages. It's painfully simple, fry off mince (I obviously used Quorn, but for you carnivore types, extra lean would do the job) and onions, when they're done, stir in chopped gherkins a couple of tbsp of light thousand island dressing, your HeA of cheese slices (3 low low ones for me) and lob the lot onto a bed of lettuce. Mine is brown as it cost me 5p :) It's pretty damn good actually, it has that burgery taste to it, and is really quick. Perfect for when a burger craving hits!  I then had a dessert that was far too big.


Meringue nests topped with strawberries and a Danio strawberry yogurt, the mint is to make it look pretty for all of you :) Far too much though, and despite watching Something About Mary (thank you E4, I'd forgotten just how awesome that film is), I'm still rather stuffed, and so there's only one thing for it....a long old soak and then bed. Where I'll watch another film, I'm currently trying to choose between Pretty in Pink or Dirty Dancing.....Decisions. Decisions!

Food Diary

Free Food
spinach
cucumber
cherry tomatoes
beetroot
sweet peppers
eggs
cous cous
onion
courgette
Knorr herb pot
Quorn mince
lettuce
strawberries

Healthy Extras
A - 3 Low Low cheese slices for burgers
B - 30g Stilton

Syns
2 tbsp Hellmanns extra light mayo               1
2 tbsp Kraft light 1000 island dressing         2
Danio strawberry yogurt                             1
2 Asda meringue nests                               5

Total syns                                                  9

Wow, somehow I have managed to have an almost Extra Easy day, well, except for my HeB being from the Green Day list :) So maybe not. I could have a cheese toastie, but it's nearly midnight and I want to have a long soak, and putting more food on my stomach doesn't seem like the cleverest idea ever. So I shall bid you all goodnight, and I shall focus on chatting to Hague and still trying to decide what film to watch....decision probably made as Andi never does choose Duckie :(


Friday, 26 July 2013

F*cked Off!!

I would apologise, lovely blog followers, but seriously? No other phrase can possibly describe my feelings over the last couple of days, I'm so angry, upset, frustrated and disappointed part of me doesn't really know where the hell to start :o(

But start I shall, with Tuesday, when things were still happy and shiny in Karen World.

I didn't have much time before work, and despite managing to throw together a nice filling breakfast, I only got out of the door on time by the skin of my teeth!


The LM sausages tasted a bit weird too - can't quite put my finger on it, but I didn't enjoy them as much as I normally do. Perhaps I've just got too used to the Quorn ones now. Anyway, with that eaten I rushed myself to work, where the food was much of a muchness and my day was pretty much as boring as hell, working in 35+ degrees heat is never conducive to a good mood either, so when I wasn't on a break I was pretty much just chugging down as much water as humanly possible to try and cool down!

Foodwise, the day looked like this....




Once again I got to use my little Tiffin box, mainly as I'm having the Activia yogurts again and those fit into it! The frittata from the weekend certainly lasted well for lunches and so I think I'll make that again, so handy to have stuff in the fridge to grab.

When I got home I was rather peckish and so Hague made me a nice stir fry, with lots of veggies and noodles.



There is definitely a difference in portion size when Hague sorts out my dinners - I still ate it all though :) Dessert was pineapple before two very excited people headed off to bed, to dream about film premieres and maybe meeting Steve Coogan.

Food Diary (Tuesday)

Free Food
eggs
potatoes
LM rosemary and red onion sausages
banana
beetroot salad
frittata
Activia 0% yogurt
peach
grapes
noodles
Asda frozen stir fry veg
mushrooms
spinach
pineapple

Healthy Extras
A - 4 LC blue cheese light
B - 4 Ryvita
B - 2 Alpen Lights

Syns
Crispy Fries                    3½

Total syns                       3½

Alas, we woke after a hideous nights sleep not feeling great, both rather grouchy in fact, I didn't feel well either, but we got up and dressed and first stop was weigh in, where I received the marvellous news that yet again I'd had a gain. This time of 2½lbs. I really am getting SO upset and frustrated at these gains, as you can all plainly see by just clicking back a few days I've been 100% on plan yet again, and so to find myself heavier and heavier by the week is starting to knock my mood. However, at the time, that was cornered off in my brain as we had a World Premiere to attend. 

Except my stomach didn't want me to attend obviously, and so spent the 40 minutes or so that we were in the car feeling worse and worse, to the point that when we reached Norwich I had to admit defeat and tell Hague I just couldn't go :( Yes that's right, the film we've both been dying to see since we heard about it, that I managed to win tickets to see at the premiere, we didn't get to see as I felt so ill. Seriously, FML, just FML at the moment.

I barely made it home, and by the time we got here I was dizzy, shivering and feeling utterly terrible, so rather than having a once in a lifetime experience, I spent my afternoon throwing up. How f*cking wonderful. Of course, as those of you who pay attention will know, being absent from work ill is not something I am at liberty to be at the moment. I think that call that the cherry on the icing of this cake of shite....

Foodwise I managed a banana (BV) and some toast (AV).

I already felt better late in the evening, and so I knew I'd be going back to work today. Only I could contract a stomach bug that pretty much only lasted the duration of the event I would miss with it. Obviously I wasn't in the best of moods when I woke up, and still wasn't feeling fantastic, I had many, many snoozes and so breakfast was something quite light.


Just to add to the niggly annoyances this was a whole tin of chopped tomatoes - it was practically all juice, very shoddy. Bayleigh didn't mind though as she had the juice on her breakfast, so someone was happy anyway.

I got to work, and was thrown straight into some manual work, lifting cases of squash off the line. Not the greatest way to be eased back in, and it certainly didn't help me feel too clever either. When I did start feeling better my mind turned to the gain of the day before. I'd pushed it to the back of my mind at the time, but now my mind wanted to take it out and play....It's something I've blogged about before, and I'm sure you're all sick to death of me whinging about it, but it's now becoming something that is endangering my journey altogether. I looked back and realised that I received my 8½ stone award on June 18th....that's 5 weeks ago, yes, I had a weekend with TOK, and I believe I've had an off plan drinks night in those 5 weeks, but since then I've lost ONE pound. ONE. I am on plan all the time, how is it fair that the weight isn't going? I know there is no "fair" when it comes to things like this, but my mind is now whispering things like "What's the point" in my ear. And seriously, what is the point? I could have had a day every week eating utter junk and still have lost 1lb in 5 weeks. I've had lots of messages today saying how amazing I look and how inspirational I am, all I can see is someone still morbidly obese, still fat, still miles from target, starting to wonder if I will ever, ever get there, I have 64½lbs to go, at the rate of 1lb every 5 weeks it'll take me forever (6 years and 3 months apparently). *sigh* I've had advice like keeping a food diary, going back to basics etc, well I do keep a food diary, still, after over a year, and how can I go back to basics when I still am following the plan like a n00b, weighing and measuring and trying to get my 1/3 superfree with every meal, counting every syn before it passes my lips. I do all of that. Thing is, next week, I'll have a huge loss, I know I will, so what is the point in my doing Success Express or upping my speed foods? My losses seem to have no correlation to what I'm eating - and for those that want to have a dig at SW and how it can have you eating thousands of calories more than you should to lose weight, I came in at 2,000 calories under what I should be eating to lose 1-1½lbs a week, so explain that away :oP

Right, I'll shut up now, I promise (until a fortnight's time when it happens again). I'll get back to food, which is why you're all here after all.

I would say my work food was much of a muchness once more, but today it wasn't. I've hardly had an appetite today, so the food that would have been my snacks were actually my lunch and my spag bol came back home with me.



I was quite disappointed in the new HiFi bars as well, to be expected on a day such as this I guess. They didn't really taste blackcurranty, more like a blackcurrant sweet, not what I expected, and they had a perfumey taste to them too, not sure I'll bother with them again. As I'd managed to bring down both TOK and Hague whilst at work with my whinging emails, no-one in the MitchyHague household was in a great mood when I got home, despite Tesco paying me 15p for the privilege of buying two Danio yogurts due to my vouchers and their offer.

I still wasn't particularly hungry when I got home though, and so just had a salad for dinner, although it does have some synnage as there is 10ml of olive oil and 16 olives lurking within its leaves.


I'm finishing it up with a very strawberry-ish dessert before I head up to bed and try to cheer myself up, although I think only a lottery win would do that the mood I'm in at the moment :(



Food Diary (Thursday)

Free Food
eggs
chopped tomatoes
banana
peach
Activia 0% yogurt
spinach
lettuce
cherry tomatoes
spring onion
cucumber
strawberries

Healthy Extras
A - 45g of Feta x2
B - 2 slices of wholemeal bread (400g loaf)
B - Alpen Lights

Syns
Crispy Fries                     3½
Olives (16)                      2
10ml olive oil                   4
Danio strawberry yog      1

Total syns                        10½

So I shall now sign off from this grumpy b*tch blog, and go to bed wondering if this yoyo-ing will ever end, and trying to remember how far I've come. Not easy right now though, really not easy.


Tuesday, 23 July 2013

Wins and Fails - Aha!

Once again it's Monday, a Monday that brought with it the glorious sunshine that had been missing all bloody weekend! Hague stirred me just before 11am to tell me he was heading out to work and so up I got. I actually did what I set out to do and did my Zumba routine first thing. It was hard going in the heat, but with a fan on and plenty of water I got through it. I really do feel much better for doing my exercise, so I need to remember that feeling when the CBA's strike! With that routine of 20 mins I've hit my Week 3 target of Body Magic, so if I keep it up, next week will bring with it a Bronze Body Magic award!


After getting all sweaty, I sorted out breakfast, the basically the same as yesterday, but with different fruit.


Toasted cous cous again, this time with natural yogurt, peach and strawberry. Once again it was lovely, I think the toasted cous cous will become a staple! Whilst eating my breakfast a couple of texts came through from The Parentals, both asking if I'd got my Nan a birthday card.....Big Fail moment as I hadn't. I'd forgotten. I am truly terrible at remembering things, and it was the turn of my Nan's birthday to slip through the gaps. Shoddy of me really, and there is no excuse other than just having a million other things on my mind. So, sorry Nan (even though I know she doesn't read this)! A card is on it's way!

So feeling suitably disgraced I headed off to work, and it was only when I got there I noticed yet more text messages, a quick check heralded today's rather huge Win....I'd won a competition! Always wonderful to hear, and this was a rather fabulous prize. Two tickets to the World Premiere of Alpha Papa, the new Alan Partridge film. My thoughts of how amazing that would be were quickly dispelled by the realisation that the premiere was at 12.30 and I have to start work at 1.45...Hmmmmm....Luckily, one of my work colleagues is bloody marvellous and will stay on late for me on Wednesday so I can go! Okay so the World Premiere is in Norwich, but still.....I think it's a total squeeeeeeeeeeeeee moment for me!

I had rather a huge bump back down to earth though, on the machines in 36 degree heat. Literally 5 minutes after I started work I was covered in sweat, really not the best feeling in the world eh? The machines weren't behaving either. It was a long shift :(




Pretty standard work fare there, including some of my frittata for my lunch along with Ryvita and Laughing Cows, nothing too heavy in what really was oppressive heat at work. At least I got in lots of flights of stairs running up to the tea room and back to fill up my water bottle as there is no water cooler on my machine! I'm sure you can understand why I couldn't wait to get home, get showered and get fed!

Hague had dinner practically ready for me when I got in, as he is rather fabulous, and he hustled me upstairs for a shower. I came back down feeling a billion times fresher and with dinner waiting.


It really is starting to hit home how much my portion sizes have changed. A few months ago I'd have had twice this amount of spag bol for dinner, now this bowl was more than enough. I guess that's why it looks like I have a huge amount of cheese!! As Hague never knowingly under caters I have another large portion of spag bol for a work lunch later this week. 

After dinner I had a feeling I've not had in ages...that feeling that I wanted something to eat, but didn't know what I wanted. I wasn't particularly hungry, but I couldn't get the idea out of my head that I wanted more to eat. I pondered lots of things, I've not had that many syns so had quite a large variety available, and I did try and talk myself out of having something as I knew I wasn't genuinely hungry, alas, I failed, but I did stick to low syn and free.


It has almost quelled my craving for more food, my mind is currently turning to Mikado!

Food Diary

Free Food
toasted cous cous
peach
strawberry
fat free natural yogurt
clementine
fritatta
banana
pasta
quorn mince
onion
courgette
mushrooms
chopped tomatoes
grapes
Activia 0% lemon and lime yogurt

Healthy Extras
A - 4 blue cheese light Laughing Cows
A - 40g reduced fat Cheddar
B - 4 Ryvita
B - 2 Alpen Lights

Syns
Shape crumble yogurt                   ½
Crispy Fries                                 3½
Cheese Curls                               3
Hot Chocolate                             2
100ml semi skimmed milk            2½

Total syns                                    11½

A milky hot chocolate will finish up my day. What a day! Ups and downs all over the place. Looks like Wednesday is going to be one hell of a busy day, with weigh in, premieres and work! Best try and get some early nights in eh??