Wednesday, 16 April 2014

Five In A Flash!

It's been a very odd few days, very much out of the normal routine and as such, blogging has fallen by the wayside a tad, I do apologise!

I shall whizz through as best as I can, hopefully keeping to that fine line between getting you up to date and not boring you to death with the in's and out's of what's been happening in the Mitchy Hague household. Firstly, not long after I last put fingers to keyboard, I was shouted awake by Hague, whose calf muscle, which had been playing him up for a while, had finally given out on him, so I had to get him safely to bed before getting back to sleep before my early alarm. So Friday turned out to be BUSY....once work was done..(fuelled by food looking rather like this...)

..I got myself home and changed in time to get his Hague-ness to the doctor to see what he'd done. The verdict was a nasty tear in one of his lower leg muscles and at least 6 weeks without Muay Thai (kickboxing) until it was mended. It also meant he couldn't make the journey to see his boys at the weekend either. So it wasn't a very happy Hague that I left on the sofa whilst I got on with the rest of my rushing around...First, to Gorleston, to pick up my new t-shirt..

..and also to head to FarmFoods to stock up on frozen fruit, then it was to Tesco, Aldi and Asda to get the main bulk of the week's shopping. I then headed out to pick up some crutches so at least my poor invalid could get himself around! By the time I got myself sat down it was gone 7, I was starving, and so dinner was very quick!

Late night snackage was also munched before we headed up to bed.

As I'd had two weeks of early starts, I shouldn't have been surprised when I woke up quite bright and early. I got myself up, breakfasted - 

and then got myself nice and cosy in my Girl Nest. I really have made myself at home on the new reclining armchair!

Once Hague was up we headed into town for a general mooch, mainly as we just wanted to get ourselves out. Back home, I ate things that looked like this...

...whilst rocking yet another new t-shirt that looked quite a lot like this...

Although we then had a disaster when Hague discovered that his new game was unplayable as the wibbly bit of his PS3 remote was broken. This is apparently quite essential to game playing, and so we had a late night foraging mission to Asda and Tesco to try and find one. With no luck :o( So I had something else to do on Sunday, after work, yes, I did me some money-grabbing, but first, Saturday night, which shaped up like this...

I *may* have picked up more Kinder eggs whilst shopping....and we now have 7 super hero's and only one duplicate, not too shabby! 

Anyway, for some reason, when I was offered Sunday overtime, I said yes. My pending speeding fine might have had something to do with it, and so it was once again that I dragged myself out of bed at stupid o'clock and headed into work. It wasn't the hardest day's work I'd ever done that's for sure, as mostly we cleaned a bit, then drank coffee, then did a bit more cleaning, interspersed with much chatting as it was in my old department, with my old team, and so I did a lot of rather lovely catching up as well. Obviously, with lots of breaks, that meant quite a lot of food too.

Once home,  it was a quick lunch before heading into town on the PS3 controller mission.

Argos yielded the much needed controller, and with a quick visit to a few other shops, we headed home and got started on dinner.

Roast dinner, followed by rice pudding. Lush. Onto Monday then, and back to work once more, at least this week it's a later shift, 2-10, which means time for a cooked breakfast!

Then it was work, where I was back to normality (very almost) as I'm back on my usual machine, on my usual hours - just with someone else to help out should my brain melt. I didn't feel anxious or anything either. Progress indeed :o) I even had something a bit different for lunch at work, Quorn meatballs with gnocchi.

In my continuing efforts to get the weight moving again I have been paying special attention to whether I am hungry or not before I eat, hence not having too much to eat at work. When I got home, I thought I'd be starving, but barely managed more than a few mouthfuls of soup.

I did manage to eat the Ryvita mini's though, and then rice pudding for dessert ;o)

Then, rather than blogging, I snuggled up in my Girl Nest and watched a few episodes of the Great British Menu before being sent to bed for falling asleep! Oops!

Here we are then, today, Tuesday! Despite not having the biggest dinner, I didn't wake up feeling massively hungry and so went with something rather light for breakfast.

Weetabix chocolate crispy mini's with a couple of plums and a banana with 200ml of the unsweetened Alpro almond milk, which made a nice change and tasted rather nice. Then it was time to get ready for work, a bit earlier than normal, as I was on a Hague requested, Easter based mission to pick up yet more Marvel Kinder eggs.

Mission accomplished :o)

Then it was time for work, which went reasonably quickly, with once again no anxiety to speak off, although I was rather narked by the fact that my sponsor form has gone missing - so had to find more online. Goodness only knows why someone decided to remove it :o( Anyway, a reasonable shift, with this lot of food - 

Quite a lot of food today, but I was definitely peckish! Didn't stop me putting dinner away almost as soon as I got home though!

I even have plenty of risotto left for lunch tomorrow, not too shabby at all. 

Food Diary - (Tuesday) - Extra Easy

Free Food
vegetable soup
Shape pineapple and coconut 0% yogurt
Quorn chicken style fillets
risotto rice
pearl barley
summer fruits

Healthy Extras
A - 75g soft cheese
B - 30g Weetabix crispy mini's (chocolate)

200ml Alpro unsweetened almond milk           1
Fish n Chips                                                   6
Liberte honey yogurt                                      1½

Total syns                                                      8½             

So that's the basics of the last five days covered. As you can (probably) see, I've stuck with Extra Easy for yet another week. In an effort to ensure that I'm not wildly over or under eating, I'm also tracking my food on My Fitness Pal to see what sort of calorie levels I'm at, and nothing is sticking out as yet. We shall see. I've not weighed in today, mainly as I was at work, so I'll be weighing in tomorrow. I have lost for the last 2 weeks, but not a real loss, as it's taken me those two weeks of losses to get rid of the 3lb gain from 3 weeks ago. It's been a long hard slog, mainly mentally and I'm struggling not to let the whole issue of losing weight take over my life at the moment - I'm questioning everything I eat, everything I do wondering what it is that's causing such an issue right now.    

After weigh in tomorrow morning, I'll decide how to move forward next week. I'm still not enjoying EE as much as the other plans, so will more than likely have a week of Success Express with a few Green days to change things up. Who knows, perhaps I'll have a huge loss and I'll be all happy and smiley when I get off those scales....


...I do hope so, as I am currently fighting a craving, a huge craving, to treat myself to a large, luxury, naughty, extravagant Easter egg. Staying strong will be much, much easier if I'm finally working towards a new award again! I do want to say a huge, huge thank you to everyone who has messaged me with advice to help me get through this sticky patch. I apologise if I haven't responded, but I have read them all, and appreciate every bit of help you've sent my way. Thank you x

Oh, and finally (at long chuffing last I hear you all sigh), there is still time to sponsor me to run Race for Life!


Thursday, 10 April 2014

Eight and Late

It’s been a busy old week for little old me. I’m back on 8 hour shifts at work, which seem very long, and as such I’ve been tired and seem to have no time at all to do anything other than work, eat and sleep – doesn’t leave much time for blogging, but that has to change as I miss blogging and keeping you all up to date with how I’m doing. Especially when I’m feeling like I am at the moment….

I’ve always pledged to be honest in this blog, and I always have been, and right now I’m struggling. I think it might be a combination of things, the slowing of my weight loss, the switching to Extra Easy and the huge amounts of frustration I’m feeling.

So far, this year I have lost nothing, nothing at all. On December 23rd I weighed 13st 9½lbs. Since then I have been on plan every single day, with the exception of December 24th-28th, December 31st and January 1st. February 7th, 8th and 10th and March 15th and 16th. 11 days off plan. So far this year we’ve had 100 days and what do I have to show for 89 wonderful, perfect on plan days? A gain of ½lb. It’s affecting me. It’s affecting how I feel about myself, how I feel about food, how I feel about Slimming World. I’m doing all the things I merrily advise others against, I’m comparing my journey to other people, I’m focusing on foods that I’ve not been having….the dreaded “can’t have’s”. I’m grumpy, I’m thinking about off plan foods nearly all the time, I’m feeling like I’m in a strait jacket and all for what?

To maintain a weight I don’t want to be.

I’m 5’6” tall and I currently weight 13st 10lbs. I’m obese. There is no getting around it. Yes, I’m slimmer than I was, and yes I’ve lost a lot of weight, but I STILL have a lot of weight to lose. I seem to gain at the drop of a hat, on plan or not, and then have to grind away teeny losses to get rid of those gains. I’d rather be back where I was last Summer with the hideous yoyo-ing I was going through as at least then the overall trend was still down! There is no hiding from the fact that the overall trend is no longer down. I have no progress bar on the Slimming World graph now, as my trend isn’t down. At the rate I’m losing target might as well be 30st away, not 3.


So what do I do? So far I’ve tried Success Express, Extra Easy and 10 syns a day, Extra Easy with 15 syns a day, Green days and those 11 off plan days. I sit in my Slimming World group and listen to people say “I have no idea where that loss came from” and I feel utterly demotivated. I find sticking to Extra Easy really hard, and feel like planning what to have to eat each day has become a chore. The freedom of Green made me feel like I could eat what I want within limits, but Extra Easy means I have to plan, cereal or HiFi, no more frivolous dried fruits, which I really enjoy, limited cheeses, so no Stilton or Brie for me! I was really hoping for another 2lb loss this week, to finally dip me back under that 13st 9½lb mark that would gain my last award back, but no. I can feel my willpower diminishing, my determination weakening, and I don’t know what I can try to get that weight loss boost to put a spring back into my step, for four months now I’ve had no award to push for, just struggling to get back to a milestone I’ve already reached once before, it’s not the same. I just want it to work again, that’s all. Not too much to ask is it? Not really :o( I really am hanging on by my fingertips here, teetering on the edge of a blowout, which I know will just make things worse, unsure as to which way to turn, or what I can do to get the losses I need to keep me going…

Despite all that, despite how I’m feeling, I’m still on plan, and after such a big old whinge, I’ll rattle through the week so as not to bore you to complete and utter tears!

Sunday – Lie in, kickboxing, Parentals, new sofa (secondhand), deciding who shall sit where on new sofa, early night.

Monday – 5.45am alarm, work, have two breakfasts, get banished from the packing floor for having earrings in, work done, drive to Stowmarket to pick up a vintage bureau, home, eat, take out 20 year old tragus piercing, cry a bit, bath, bed!

Tuesday – decide on an extra snooze as sure petrol will last, work, head home, run out of petrol, saved by Hague, quick bath, weigh in – 1lb off, radio meeting, quick food, bed.

Wednesday – work again, many emails to TOK, home, much food, book trains for Maycation to visit TOK, eat more, watch repeats of Great British Bake Off, eat yet more, seafront stroll, see purple minions, manage not to win one, home, eat more. Get myself to bed before I start eating furniture…

So that’s you all up to date with my week so far, including me running out of petrol on Tuesday on the way home from work – luckily I was less than a mile from home so Hague could rescue me, and the new furniture additions to the house. I’m determined that our house shall be lovely. One day. When funds and motivation both come together in harmony, which so far never happens!

Today then, Thursday and the weekend is finally looking a lot closer from here. It makes a huge difference having that extra hour or so in bed compared to last week though, and I’m a lot brighter, although the almost constant coffee might have something to do with that too. Plus, I’ve been working on the computer, which means TOK and Hague have kept me sane whilst I carried on with project paperwork. With many plans made for our Maycation, more sponsorship gotted for my Race for Life run thanks to a work email, plus some lovely words and advice from the ever wonderful WeightLossBitch it's been a rather busy day. I even managed to get to the work shop to stock up on a few bits and bobs. Plus, I ate this little lot whilst I was there...

I really am loving those peanut HiFi bars, I can't wait to try the new salted caramel flavour either! When I was heading home though, just one thing was on my mind. A t-shirt that my friend Vicky had posted on the Purple Bus page...

I'm sure any regular blog readers will realise that I needed this t-shirt. On a level on par with things such as oxygen and water. So as soon as I got in, I had my lovely (huge) lunch cooked by the rather smashing Hague - 

I have no idea why Blogger has decided it should be sideways, it was however an omelette with chips, sausages and beans, and was rather yummy, especially with a dessert of a Kinder egg (I'm not allowed to open any more until the open ones are eaten) - and then hot footed it down to New Look to look for the new official Most Awesome T-Shirt In The World. 

I looked, I searched, I went and looked in the kid's section. Nothing. I showed several shop assistants the picture, to looks of utter confusion, but to their credit, they kept looking for me and in the end one was found - in a size 6. Now, I know I've lost a lot of weight, but I will never squeeze myself into one of those bad boys, but one has now been reserved for me at another store for me to pick up tomorrow. Yayness! With that done, I headed home, and was reminded on the way about a rather rash promise I had made to TOK. I promised that if she did a Zumba workout, I would go for a run, and she was having none of my pleas about doing a brisk walk into town and back. She's a hard task master that one, and so after a fortifying cuppa I headed out for a run. I had asked whether I should do another 20 minute run, up it to 30 minutes or try for the full 5K - she voted for the 5K, and so out I went...

I may have nearly died, but I did it! Cue very unflattering selfie as proof...

At least I have now proved to myself that I can run 5K, however hard I might find it...speaking of running 5K, have I mentioned I'm running Race for Life this year? ;o) I'm still looking for sponsors, so feel free to click right HERE to be all generous and help me to reach my target!

After my run, I was rather sore, and so headed up for a nice soak, accompanied by this range of snacks...

...and Masterchef on my iPad, all too soon it was time to get out, and head out to get Hague from Kickboxing. Once back indoors (via Tesco to search for bargains) I got myself a quick dinner of homemade veggie soup that had been lingering in the fridge and a Danio for dessert.

This will be swiftly followed by a hot chocolate, and me heading up to bed as it's yet another early start for me in the morning. Roll on the weekend!

Food Diary - (Thursday) - Extra Easy

Free Food
forest fruits
toasted couscous
fat free yogurt
baked beans
cherry tomatoes
low fat Quorn sausages
homemade veggie soup

Healthy Extras
A - 350ml skimmed milk
B - HiFi bar

Cheese curls                           3
Kinder Egg                             5½
Danio blueberry                      3
Options hot chocolate             2

Total syns                               13½

Ah, up to date once more - and just about time for this very weary girl to get herself up to bed and ponder on the advice she's received today. Of course, any other advice is always gratefully received, especially when I'm feeling all grumpy about my slow losses.


If you want to sponsor me you can find my Just Giving page right HERE Thank you x 

Saturday, 5 April 2014

Rather A Lot Of Happy!

Funny how sometimes days turn out rather marvellous, when they held no promise whatsoever when they start at 4 chuffing 30! Yep, it was work once more for me this morning, and much as I had hoped we might (all) get away early as lines were due out earlyish, two were still running when we got there, and in a change up for me this week, I was on the factory floor helping out. Good for the time going, not so great for Stupid Elbow of Hurtyness. In a welcome break from putting bottles on the line I had my rather yummy breakfast.

Oatso Simple fruit muesli porridge, with natural yogurt and blueberries. Very delicious, washed down with a large coffee before I got stuck in with more bottle putting on the line-ing and cleaning, before I got in a wee bit more computer time to finish up the project work (with snackage) before heading home.

Before I went to bed last night, me and Hague had discussed our plans for the day, and he had pondered going into town to put our Grand National bets on rather than using t'interwebz, but when I got in, he'd decided against it, and so the day was looking like a rather lazy one. I embraced that with a rather lush lunch before heading for a nap whilst he kicked people in the head for a while.

Whilst I was trying to sleep, I got a kernel of an idea in my head, and so decided that once Hague had eaten and we'd watched our horses lose, we'd head out into the sunshine to try and find some Marvel Kinder eggs, as we'd been thwarted in our efforts yesterday. Plus it meant I'd get my daily steps up to finish this weeks Pact! So off we went, with a National win under our belts, in the sunshine to Kinder hunt - just struck me that we're probably a bit early for an egg hunt, but that's the way we roll in this house ;o) I'll be honest, the hunt wasn't overly hard...

We still carried on with our plan to visit Asda too though, where I had today's top Happy moment...

Rather fabulous t-shirt there, that of course I HAD to have, especially as it was only £5....mainly as it was a girl's age 13-14 size :o) Not too shabby eh? It has opened up yet another avenue of buying clothes though, which is rather a scary prospect for my poor, bulging wardrobe! I also picked up these...I mean how could I not? 

They'll help me get through the working week, after all, what on earth can upset me if I'm actual BatMan? And I would be actual BatMan as I have a utility belt there and everything :o) Being the mature adults we are, we didn't even manage to wait until we got home to start on the Kinder eggs either.

We unwrapped a Captain America and Hulk, and then merrily walked home,  building up rather an appetite which I got to work on as soon as we got in! Once dinner was in the oven though, I could hear the eggs calling me, and so much to Hague's annoyance, I unwrapped the 4 remaining eggs to free the SuperHero's within! 

The chocolate has been left untouched, there's willpower for you! I was rather impressed with us only finding one double as well, so I might steal a Hulk to adorn my handbag! Whilst I was unwrapping Marvel thingums, dinner was merrily cooking away.

Quorn lamb grills, with hasselback potatoes and broccoli and leeks with blue cheese sauce AKA melted blue cheese Laughing Cow triangles. I then watched a bit of last year's Great British Bake-Off whilst Hague sorted his dinner and we waited for PrizeFighter to start. Boxing was accompanied by dessert.

As we seem to be stacking up probably the world's busiest day tomorrow, we'll be having an early one, so no more noms for me today, just a nice cuppa (or two) before bed!

Food Diary - Extra Easy

Free Food
fat free natural yogurt
Quorn low fat sausages
Quorn lamb grills

Healthy Extras
A - 4 blue cheese Laughing Cow light triangles
B - Oatso Simple fruit muesli porridge

blueberry Danio yogurt                            3
5 pieces Wrigley's Extra gum                   ½
Kinder egg                                             5½
Activia creamy yogurt                             2½

Total syns                                               11½

I've really enjoyed today, well, I say today, whilst work wasn't awful, it was definitely this afternoon that has lifted my mood. Just small things, silly things to a lot of people have really made me feel happy. In fact I struggled to choose just one  for my #100happydays, quite a nice problem to have don't you think? Whilst I did spend part of the day lusting after beautiful houses and apartments for that hoped for Lottery win, my main thought when we got back indoors after our little adventure was how content I's an underused word I think, but that's when I am definitely at my happiest, when my life is enough, what I have in my life is enough to bring a smile to my face.

I think I've made real progress over these few weeks, just under 3 weeks ago I was an anxious, nervous mess just walking into work, yesterday I had a meeting with my Manager about my phased return progress and whilst I was a bit apprehensive, I wasn't anxious. Huge progress. Even the prospect of another meeting about other absences wasn't enough to throw me into a spiral of nerves, I'm rather proud of that. Perhaps I am finally heading back to normality....although when I say normality, that is a few degrees past odd/kooky/weird compared to what most would call normal, and I wouldn't have it any other way :o)